God’s Work Behind the Scenes


In the midst of heartache and wondering what God is doing and when He will deliver, it always amazes me how He loves to show out and show up. Our God is a good, good Father.

You may remember in last weeks post how I was struggling after finding out about a friends pregnancy. Well fast forward to the other day when I had a dream that I found out I was pregnant and in this dream I was so very excited and went around telling everyone I ran into that I was pregnant. After all, I had waited so long for this. Then I woke up, and reality set in. That was just a dream. And my emotions are set off again because I’m heartbroken that was just a dream. Sigh…

So I start thinking that often times when I have dreams related to this journey towards motherhood God is usually trying to show me something. So I began praying and asking for His revelation. And He showed me that finding out I was pregnant is a part of my story and it will come to pass for me!!! I was so beyond blown away. I’ve had dreams of my children, but it’s been so long and I never knew how these children would come to me. So this was a new and fresh revelation.

At work yesterday, a friend came by and told me that the Lord has put me on her heart to pray for me. So she’s been praying for me the last several months. And God told her to come pray over me, so she came to see me.

I believe a baby is coming for you.

Those were the words she said right before she prayed over me. And her prayers were amazing. She kept saying how brave I was for putting my story out there and helping other women in this journey. I was in tears by the time she was done, just so in awe.

Then this morning I woke up to a friend messaging me. Also telling me she has been praying for me. She goes on to share how she understands this journey I’m on, she prays that I will have strength to carry the mantle of the ministry I’m leading and that I’m an inspiration to so many. I just begin crying happy tears. The timing of this message after everything else is just so amazing.

God showed me the work He was doing behind the scenes. Giving me dreams about my story, assigning women to pray for me, my future child and my ministry. He has big things coming even when I can’t see them happening before my eyes.

What things could God be working behind the scenes for you?

Many, O Lord my God, are the wonders you have done. The things you planned for us no one can recount to you; were I to speak and tell of them, they would be too many to declare.      – Psalm 40:3


His Timing Really is Perfect!!!


So, I can hardly believe I can really say these words, but I am truly free from all financial bondage….I AM DEBT FREE! I never thought the day would come when we could say those words. And, honestly words can really not even begin to describe the weight that has been lifted.

All I know is that we serve an amazing God!!! He supernaturally chose to free us from our bondage! I am still not sure the reason He chose to do it, but so unbelievably grateful! And, the timing of it all, so perfect. Which I shouldn’t be surprised by that because His timing is always perfect and right on time, even when we don’t quite think so.

We have paid off our car, paid off over $40,000 in debt between credit cards, taxes & medical bills. All those numbers simply blow me away! The last 2 years we were simply overflowing in debt, and didn’t see any way that we would be able to make it through. I knew God would always provide, but in my flesh mind and experience didn’t see how we would ever be floating over debt.

And now…wow, it is so possible. He really does provide, and in perfect timing. Carl had lost his job, and with that loss 75% of our income was gone. How would we ever survive that, with all this debt? How could any of our lenders understand that most of our income was gone? But they were understanding…right up to the moment we would be delivered. But the most amazing thing in all of it, is He chose to supernaturally deliver us from this mess we had gotten ourselves into, at this very moment…at the moment where we only had my part time income to make it through. I assure you, His timing really is perfect!!! And what’s crazy is that a couple years before that we were almost completely debt free, and it all came tumbling back down. And, I know that we were not mature enough or wise enough to handle our money then. I know God knows us so well, that He knew that we needed a couple more years of being slaves to our lenders to really get it! And oh boy, did we get it! I refuse to ever go back to that life of debt and bondage!!

As I think about it…that’s not the only aspect of how His timing is perfect. I had probably had one of the worst years of my life. My grandmother passed away, my husband lost his job, my mom had surgery, my stepmother passed away, I found out my father had a terminal illness, & my husband had neck surgery. I seriously was at the point…what else could Satan possibly throw at me?? Really??? Come on!!!! I was beginning to doubt myself, and I thought God had stopped intervening in my life? You’re a healer? Really? Look at all that had happened over the past year…so much related to healing. I know you are God, I know you heal…but why was no one in my circle getting that advantage of you? Why was all this happening? I can totally say that I don’t understand all of it. But I do know, He was always there waiting with open arms for me, no matter what the enemy threw at me. He allowed me to go through it all, and it only made me stronger, it didn’t matter what was thrown at me, My God is so much bigger! And his timing is perfect! Because after that horribly rotten year, he delivered us from our bondage!!! Why? Because He’s God, and He loves me! And apparently, He has bigger plans for me than I had for myself.

So are you doubting why He hasn’t answered you yet? We prayed for 7 years. But His timing was much more than perfect! Trust in His timing, He knows way better than we do!!!